Today, I watched “Yes Man” by Jim Carey and man was it a good movie. It was very funny and it had Jim Carey speaking Korean, pretty good Korean I must say. The movie is about a man named Carl who was in a dead end job and saying “No” to every opportunity around him. Carl is also very reserved and didn’t like to socialize or take risks, probably because his ex-wife divorced him. Then he joined this self-help program that teaches him to say “Yes” to everything and then things really started to happen for him and things that seemed bad and risky actually turned out good in the end.
All throughout the movie, I just thought to myself, “am I a NO man?” Do I always say No to opportunities that arise in front of me. Do I keep my life quite standard and reserved so that things just stay status quo? A pastor said in a sermon, “we want miracles but we just don’t let ourselves be in a position to receive them”. Do I not take risks because I’m scared of the consequences?
It’s true. I am a NO man sometimes. I was much braver and more courageous before but I’ve been sitting in my little bubble and hoping amazing things would happen to me but I just let life slip by, day by day. I’ve always wanted to be fluent in 5 languages: English, Cantonese, Mandarin, Korean and Japanese. I would say I can only work in 2 languages, English and Cantonese. The rest are not good enough to be considered fluent. I’ve always wanted to live in Korea for a year and study Korean and be fluent in it. International students come to Vancouver and study English for a year or so and some even stay here. So why can’t I go to Korea and study Korean and eventually work there? Ever since the last time I was there in 2005, I missed that place so much. I’ve always wanted to go to Hong Kong again and Japan as well for extended vacations, but never had the time or money to go. I’ve also wanted for years to visit my friends in Toronto who have been asking me for years to go and visit but I also hadn’t had the time or money to go. I’ve always wanted to get Laser Eye Correction but I was always afraid of the bad side effects because I’ve heard of many cases. Besides, how safe is 96% when it comes to your vision? I’ve always wanted to go on missions long term but I guess doors have never opened up for me to go. My parents are strongly against it and it seems like the missions organizations want seminary trained students. I’ve wanted to go into seminary but I got rejected 2 times from the college I wanted to go to so I felt like maybe it’s not the time. I didn’t bother applying to other places.
The thing is I make too many excuses for things I want to do but I don’t really put in a whole lot of effort into trying to make those things happen. I also don’t take a lot of risks that maybe aren’t so bad to take.
I’ve even become a little scared in girlfriend relationships. I’ve taken so many risks, a lot of them I shouldn’t have taken and in the end, it left me broken and single. I think relationships is one of the few things in my life I have been saying YES to and I’ve taken risks and in almost all cases, I put in a lot of effort and I left myself vulnerable as ever. But maybe it’s something I should have said NO to. Maybe I just live in a fantasy world where I think miracles will happen, and some have happened in my life but I sort of expected them to keep happening for me. Maybe I need to wake up. Wake up Gary! Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know whatcha gonna get. But you know what, in a box of chocolates, there’s always a small piece of paper telling you which chocolate is what flavor so in a sense life is like that. You sort of know what you are going to get. But I keep telling myself, “no, God is the God of miracles and he can make that chocolate turn into cheese”. See how retarded that sounds. Things just aren’t like that. When the chocolate is a chocolate, it’s not going to turn into cheese. When things unfold in my life in certain ways, it’s just not gonna change. “But but but… but… but…. God can…”
Yes God can but He won’t unless it’s something for His glory. Most of the miracles I want are mostly to satisfy my own needs and desires. Man…
Need to think about the movie today and the concept a little more.